The Beauty of Life it is?

                It’s been a long time that I never update my blog. To tell you the truth, I’m so busy one of this days. This semester is definitely tough for me for some reasons. I don’t go NYC since when my classes started. Also, I started to have a migrain since the first until the second week of October. My friends advising me of health problems.

                I realized to myself that New York is not meant for my heart. I love New York because it’s a lot of things going there (opportunities, NYC, financial district of business, college/universities, attractions/sceneries and etc….). I have circle of friends that they supports and understands me on what I’m having a big pain now. Eventhough, I had met some rude, asshole, disrespect, unfriendly people that just stock of my head that they are mostly are like that. It’s their lost, not my lost anymore. HAHAHA!!!

                I was thankful that my parents is allowing me to finish my BS degree in Philadelpiha, PA. Pennsylvannia is my key of my opportunity to encourage me to be a better person. Maybe, I will find my right person to me. Honestly, I am easily in love and very attracted to Midwest / Mountains part, Brazilians and Costa Ricans guys/gals. I don’t know why?

Latest News:

1. I’m not slim anymore. My weight is 140 lbs and gaining more.

2. I started work out.

3. I’m not going to Lea Salonga’s concert this coming Nov 2.

4. I’m going to San Francisco, CA for a month for Christmas and New Year. I can’t wait to see my relatives and friends.

5. I drink lots of milk, but I don’t like the taste.

6. This semester is definitely tough for me.

7. My dad buy me a camera before Christmas.

8. We went to Niagara Falls, NY last September 29.

9. We went to Apple Peeking in Somers, NY last September 30.

10. I have a new myspace account 2nd time around, blogspot, bravejournal, xanga, tagged, facebook, and many more.

               Last Saturday, I had a high fever because of the changed weather. It’s strange for me becuase it’s not fall yet. It keeps so freezing and most especially inside our house. I lose a 4 - 6 pounds. I can’t go thru into 140 lbs or more. Physically changed a lot one of this days. I had a flu. One week before the class, I need to eat a lot, stay at home, arrange things for the schooling. I prayed everyday. This is the strange for me the weather. I don’t know on how to do.

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My Checklist:

- Modern Camera

- Increasing my weight (150 -160 pounds)

- California, USA (San Francisco) this December 2007 - January 2008

- Nevada, USA (Las Vegas) this December visiting Sister Edna

- My swimming, speech or drama lessons (Any one of three)

- Getting my white complexion back (SERIOUSLY!!!)

- Changing our status

- Writing letters and cards to the USA and Philippines

- More fitness

- Eat more

- Blonde hair (JUST THINKING)

- Shave my hairs in legs (LAZY IN PUTTING LOTION THIS YEAR)

- Reading books (Economics, Gender - ANY)

- Changing my eyeglasses

- Buying a sunglasses (SALE of 50 %)

- Visiting to Columbia University

- Visiting to Yale University

- Visiting to University of Pennsylvannia

- Visiting to Boston University

- Visiting to Harvard University

- Going to Niagra Falls this August 2007

- Going to Buffalo, New York this August 2007

- Going to Albany, New York for the state in New York

- Going to Binghampton,  New York

- Going to Rhode Isand, USA (Providence) and Massachussetts, USA (Boston) with Auntie Alice

- Teeth Whitening

- Teeth Cleaning

- Knowing the Brooklyn and Manhattan directions (MIDTOWN and DOWNTOWN) without looking the subway map.

- Going to Fire Island, New York,  but my dad is not allowing to come there.

- Learning Tennis

- Learning Billiards more

- Learning Ice skating and Ice hockey more

- Mountain climbing

- Hiking

- Boating

- My English words and expressions

- Saying thank you and goodbye to my Professors in WCC

- Visiting my friends in New Jersey, USA (Central Area)

- Pennsylvania, USA (Philadelphia) - going to Temple University to continue my studies

- IN A RELATIONSHIP instead of SINGLE (SERIOUSLY!!!)

                For past month, I had been so sad, and I don’t showed up to other people for my feelings for.

                My dad received a mail from PNB the housing loan in Fairview. The letter said that he need to pay those interests (just a 25% of it) and the payment increased by (4,000 pesos). I really shocked about what happened. My dad wanted to talk to me personally about my college for Fall 2007 semester. He didn’t get into straight forward conversation. When comes to my mind is to stop 2 semesters, then back to Fall 2008 semester which is I will stay at home most of the time. Additionally by staying at home, I will be out for Fridays and weekends as well. My mom wanted me to graduate early 20’s. Adjusting in New York made me terribly hard and a lot of hardships. Trying for applying the 3rd time for financial aid and loan doesn’t give me chance in New York State. I guess my life is not easy for me to reach out. I don’t judge the government with their qualifications, and I don’t felt emotionally about the results.

                Last week, I decided that I’m going to stop college for two semesters because of financially problem that we had right now. College is expensive. I don’t want to rush, and I just want to enjoy my life. When they talked to me about this matters. I wanted to go back to school, but trials gave me difficulty. I don’t have regrets about my decisions. It’s my parents and I decisions. The important is when I have a spare time. I am continuing what I’m doing right now. I don’t get upset or show my prideness with my parents. My friends shocked what happen. Only Almighty Father will answer this. I will leave it with him….

                If everything is good. Kapag naayos na ang papel. I will not get back to WCC. Instead, I will be transfer in Temple University in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania (PA) which is 2 1/2 hours from New York. (www.temple.edu). I will be in boarding school. While, my parents will be heading in San Francisco, CA to have their own house I mean our house. HEHEHE! Hopefully, I am going thru before Fall 2008. It’s suck. I could find more opportunies than in New York. I will pursue my Accounting and Economics. Maybe, I could find a special someone who will tickes and melts me up. Pennsylvania is my way of happiness, success and never dissapoint me with all aspects of opportunities. Hopefully, there will be good and great experiences that I’ll be heading in.

AND THAT’S MY FINAL DECISION…

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                In few weeks, I’m not anymore considered as a teen. You just called me an adult. HAHA! Life is too fast. I had so many experiences, enjoyements, challenges and trials that I had before. Whether is good or bad, I’m still breathing with all pathways of my life. I had so much learned a lesson. I should give the benefit of importance for it for my sake of my identity. Life for me is like a wheel. I enjoyed myself accompanied by my friends who are real, always there for me, doesn’t judge my personality traits. Friends for me are important to me. There are the ones who provoke me to be strong, to be calm, and to be succeed with my goals of life. Thank you for listenning for my life story, my past relationships. Thank you for sharing your life to me. It learns me to become a better person. it awares me in every enviroment that I look. I want to know that wherever we are far to each other. I always still by my heart and I pray everyday to grow our relationship more. Life for me is a like a story book. Chapthers are very detailed in every situation or sometimes to be summarized to be understandable. Things will happen, it’s just like a history or a geography thing. Life varies…life is always be a gateway to be geared up for.

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                Honestly, I’m about to go in San Francisco, California for 3 months to be with my both relatives. I want to have time for them kahit papano because I missed them so much. Super miss na miss ko talaga ang San Francisco, halos lahat ng friends ko ay andun. Ako lang yata dito sa New York. Talagang hindi pa time pa pumunta ako doon. May nangyari sa relatives ko. I just want to open up to you.

1. My Auntie Lulu (my dad side) went to Pinas last week ago to see his son Michael. His progress are doing good. Thankfully na maayos na siya and hopefully by next year ay makabalik na siya sa California. I hope that he will forget his past. Thoses vices are bad for the health and your entire personality will be affected. Malalampasan ng Tita ko yan.

2. My Auntie Lulu (my mom side) has a bad problems with her husband. They need to file a divorce papers para maging free na si Tita ko at maayos na siya. My cousins are different that I met before because of hypotizing his dad to hate her mom. Inaayos pa rin ang kaso nila dalawa. They fight each other. Kulang na yan ay patayin ang Tita ko. If ever na may mangyari si Tita ko ay ako ay makakalaban niya at kahit hindi ko siya kaano-ano. When I saw his face, his personality looks like an ogre. There are times that I want to swear that he will go to hell and have a big karma to him to all thoses harsh things that he did to my Auntie. Super bait ng tita ko at wala na akong masasabi pa.

                I’m so excited to go in New Mexico, USA (not Mexico) and Florida, USA. I really can’t wait, but all plans were cancelled because of the things that happened. I don’t expect this kind of situation. Hopefully, kung matapos ang kaso ng Tita (mom’s side) ko ay may time na siya para sa amin. She’s so generous and very kind.

                My mom and dad told me that I will be going on Christmas 2007 until before my Spring 2008 starts my class. It’s a good decision to feel their Christmas and New Year too. Of course, more $$$$’s HEHEHEHEHE! Yes, I will be staying for three weeks. YAHOO!

My Classes for Fall 2007 are:

- Intermediate Accounting I = (4 credits) AM - PM SESSION

- College Algebra with Trigonometry = (4 credits) PM SESSION

- Introduction to Oceanography plus LAB = (4 credits) LECTURE is on AM SESSION while LAB is on PM SESSION.

- Introduction to Academic Writing 2 = (3 credits) PM SESSION

- Vocal Ensemble 2 (2 credits) = AM SESSION

- PE = Health / Fitness (Fitness Badminton) = (1 credit) = AM SESSION

- PE = Sports / Recreation (Fitness Tennis) = (1 credit) = AM SESSION

There are 19 credits in total.

                When I was my first part time student by Fall 2004. It’s hard for me to adjust with my college and most especially the weather. I had the best Professor that I had before. We had no homework, just 4 tests, and he will drop the lowest grade and final too. I failed this class because my final is a huge percent, then; I didn’t finished it by two hours. That’s why I’m going to retake it again by another Professor. One of my friend told me that he’s a great teacher and nice personality. My favorite Professor retired by Fall 2005. He’s residing in Iowa, USA. I will never forget him. He makes the hard stuff easy. I miss his class very much.

                The hardest in Accounting subject is Managerial Accounting. A lot of people told me that. My accounting Professors doesn’t want to teach that only if you are working in the factory and making a product. It’s a lot of strenous work and a lot of labs. I understand very much and I learned so much by my Professor. Thankfully, I got a same grade as my Financial Accounting grade. I had a overfatique two weeks before the final. I can’t walk normal and my diction is very different. A lot of people noticed me physically. Until now, my voice is still the same. I don’t want to get stress again. I missed my Professor so much. I can’t wait to take her in Intermediate Accounting with her. She considered me as a son. She always accepts the late labs with legitimate excuse. I’m grateful that I had her for two semesters.

                I had the worst Physical Education Professor. He’s a coach of basketball in our school. He doesn’t teach very much, and he’s not writing a backboard. He just speak and speak non-relevant matters with our discussion. The midterms and finals are extremely hard. There are times that I don’t want to come to his class because I don’t learn so much from him. Health is a lot of terms to memorize. There are times that I tend to sleep so much. I had the best health Teachers when I was in hig school. And, that’s why I’m going to take more on sports.

My Time Schedule for Fall 2007:

Monday = 9 - 5 PM straight hours, but there is a 10 minutes break in every class hour.

Tuesday = 9 - 4 PM straight hours, but there is a 10 minutes break. I have a 1 - 2 PM break in every class hour.

Wednesday = 2 - 5 PM straight hours, but there is a 10 minutes break in every class hour.

Thursday = 9 - 12 PM straight hours, but there is a 10 minutes break in every class hour.

Friday = 8 - 12 NN straight hours, but there is a 10 minutes break in every class hour. This is my two PE class. HEHEHEHEHE!!!!

Compare my Hours in Every Semester:

Fall 2004 - 20 hours

Fall 2006 - 14 hours

Spring 2007 - 16 hours

Fall 2007 - 24 hours!!!!

                I only had a problem is my Monday time because I had 8 hours straight from 9 AM until 5 PM. Three double periods and then, two an hour. The next days are okay. Unlike the previous semester is a totally stress for me and a lot of math problem solving questions. I rather go to school everyday than staying at home most of the time. My college life is the best thing of my life. Hopefully, I will transfer somewhere in Mid-west area to get my Double Baccalaureate degree in Business Accounting and Business Strategy. I hope that I could achieve it. By the next step of degree, I want to pursue my Law degree in graduate and professional school. Just day and time will answer and comes by way.

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                One of this days, I don’t know on what’s happenning. We are both doing good and doing fine. I tried to be thoughful once in a while just to say hello, how are you, take care, good night, sweet dreams and many more. Deserving a word makes our relationship grow more and better. I used to say to myself that "THIS WILL BE THE LAST PERSON WHO WILL CATCH TO MY LIFE, AND I’M NOT GOING TO LOOK / SEE MORE". I had an inspiring someone who is there for me, gives me an attention, love, care, tenderness, faithful, loyalty and understanding as well. When you feel the saying I LIKE YOU, I felt that my heart beats up. We deserve that you say with someone right? I know that we are far to each other. I will say that I LIKE YOU too. It’s not easy to handle this everything and you don’t see each other in person to feel your inside and to feel your heart with someone. I don’t know on how our relationship will be bond and unite. We just chatting for 2 - 4 times a week. When I IM just to say how are you and good night, never responded a single word. You know know the mode whether is good or bad. It’s not easy for this. Maybe we are not meant to be each other. "He" doesn’t want me to make me happy. "He" knows the reason on why. I tried to have trust with each other. In one day, we will each other and started a real relationship. I don’t know if what we going to end our relationship.

                I hope that appreciates your thoughts, your words, your advises and sayings as well. It’s hard and knows the word SENSITIVITY…

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                I don’t know on how to say this. After a day happened to me, I was praying that I hope will we will grow our relationship and strong as well. He answered my prayer and apologized on what happened. Also, we started again to get to know each other as ask questions flow by flow. I’m grateful for the day that we talked for couple of hours. We focused on more in interests, hobbies and likes as well. As much as possble, we don’t go up things fast. As long as that we were happy to each other.

                In one day, if we could meet each other in person in just in right time and right place to be. My life would be full of happiness and full of blosooms. I will never get change of myself. My grandmother told me that. Until now, I just remembered all of her teachings to me when it comes to love. We deserve to be happily in love.

                As of now, we are doing good and talking flow by flow. We had the same experiences before and we are the same that what we are looking for. I’m praying hard that everything is nicely and good. Communication is important to build your relationship. We don’t talked most of the time. As long as the ingredient to work for is TRUSTWOETHY, HONEST, LOYALTY, SINCERE, UNDERSTANDING and FAITHFULNESS.

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                To all my friends that they are always there for me. I just want to say thank you for advising me everytime you know my feelings. I need someone an attention, a care, a tenderness, a love, a bestfriend, a friend, a close friend, a teacher, and a mentor as well. They were supported me all the time. I will be continuing to pray and have center of heart and growing faith as well.

Why is it like this? One of this days, I need someone who understands me, who cares me, who carress me and who loves me so much. I’m a guy who easily attracted to other people and easily to be inloved. I remembered that when my grandmother passed by, she talked to me about finding a real love someday. Honestly to tell you, I found one my special someone here in chat, but it end of dissapointed and frustration. I don’t know what happened. After we talked, my heart is beating so fast. It’s very hard for me. I love my baby and that’s called me. I treasure it very much. This getting along each other doesn’t work for me.

I trully realize to myself that I’m very dissapointed and frustrated when it comes to love. In this world, it is not meant for me to have one. I think that life is so unfair, and it sucks. I guess, that’s a reality of it. When I was young, I had been hurted so many times physically, emotionally and socially. And, now my special person in my life that lives on Oklahoma, USA. It is not meant for me to have one. I should prioritize myself my dreams and my goals in my life. This is my vision of my life who meant for me to happen.

I’m very tired for this. I can’t take it anymore.

I AM GOING TO GIVE UP THIS…

PS: If your reading this, I just want to say that I am very thankful that you are so nice and great sense of humor for me. I treasure it by my heart. Thank for your love, tenderness, care and attention that you gave for me.

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